The girl looking in the mirror asked, “Am I Ugly?”
The reflection replied, “Yes. You Are.”
The girl looking in the mirror is me. The reflection speaking back are the voices of many. The damage is deep to get over soo soon. Maybe they were just words for the one who spoke but the one to receive them was hard to have it in. And once it was in…it was hard to get out.
That four letter word can break a person’s confidence and heart.
I’ll be very honest with you…be it here or my social media sites, people comment on my pictures saying how beautiful or pretty I look. Little do they know that the person who wrote a ‘Thank You’ comment back really doesnt believe what they say. Yes, I dont believe when people call me pretty or beautiful now because I feel they are just being nice. I accept it but I have hard times believing it.
Why? I dont really know.
This word. UGLY. It kind of took place for the better words for myself. I have come across such words that has changed the way I now look at myself.
UGLY. TOO SKINNY. BLACK AS A COAL. DISGUSTING. DIRTY COLORED. 🙂
Yes I have been a victim to racism. I still get such comments. I got victimised from family and friends. Really close people. There was a time when I didnt like looking at the mirror for how I really felt about myself. I remember scratching myself so that my real skin could vanish and it looked fairer so I could fit in with my friends and family. I would always cry and ask myself “How is it my fault that I was born this way?” However my friend (the one I dedicated a birthday post to) made me realise that it is not the color that really matters. I then stopped paying less attention to such comments. Though it did hurt me. I still do get such comments and when it gets all too much I cry.
I understand the fact that they are just words but they leave a huge mark on someone’s life that it gets hard for them to trust better words about themselves. Especially when you receive them from really really close family and friends.
I was always told that nobody would fall in love with me because I am ugly plus dark. I am 19 now and I have never been in a relationship. Somewhere in the middle I would think that those comments are true I really have trouble with confidence. It was shattered after the first comment I received about me being dark from someone I never thought would say. I was in class 7 0r 8 and since then those words surrounded me.
I dont know how many days, months, years would it take to gain my confidence back but all I want to say is that please think before you call someone ugly. The one being called is actually beautiful and the one saying it is ugly. This world now looks at people with filters over their eyes. If you look good with the *Retrica Filter* over their eyes then you are meant to be loved. Really? Such people might be beautiful to look at but their insides are the ugliest place ever.
PLEASE PLEASE THINK BEFORE YOU SAY!
If those people gave it a thought before they spoke then maybe that little girl sitting on her bed and crying wouldnt be writing this today. 🙂
Take Care ❤