Few months back I did a post where I wrote about receiving racist comments and how I dealt with it. Well this is just an update to that last post. On that post I shared how I felt about it and now I feel there’s been some changes to my thoughts.
Because I have a dark skin (which I now see as shiny bronze) 😀 I feel more comfortable in my skin now. Though sometimes I have my walls up when I feel anxious about it but more or less I have started to feel free. Thinking about it now makes me laugh because I had color choices. I wouldn’t wear white as it would make me look darker. I wouldn’t wear black, grey, red, orange and yellow. Rarely had any clothes of those colors and now I wear all the colors I want. Seeing myself in the mirror no more shames me.
However as I said I do those moments where I do feel I will get bashed yet again. I try to be very strong and take those comments as if the one to comment is just jealous of me (kind of helps) :p I am still at place where I think twice before wearing something that can expose a lot of skin because I think people would be grossed by my color. I put a lot of pressure on myself I know and have been told a million times but that’s who I am. Maybe I need to make a New Year’s Resolution about this :p But yes I am no longer sitting in my room crying about those comments. I have passed through them and will soon pass all the shackles that still holds me back.
However I would thank all of you guys who supported me on my last post and obviously my friends and family who has made me realise that being dark isn’t anything but one commenting on it probably has a dark soul. 🙂 If you are someone who’s been through this or going through it then trust me you’ll be over it once you love yourself. And no matter who comments just laugh at their face and say “Stop being soo jealous because now I can even smell something burning.”:D Trust me they’ll think twice before they comment the next time 😀